My Own Road
Those words pretty much describe my feelings about today.
Yesterday was hectic beyond all belief, and stressful to boot. But, that’s all behind me now. I’ve got one more week of actual class to eke through and then finals week. After that? Graduation.
That one word is filled with so much relief, hope, and dread.
On one hand, I am more than ready to be done with classes and start my own life, my real life- whatever that may be. But then there’s the other hand that makes me think, “Am I ready?”
Think about it.
You’ve spent your whole life up until this point doing schoolwork of some kind and suddenly, it’s all gone. You’re left adrift without any real direction other than a gut feeling that tells you where you should go and what you really want out of life. There’s something rather terrifying about that.
Should I listen to that voice? If I do, how do I know I won’t be left floundering?
We spend so much of our lives studying for tests and exams that, more often than not, have no real life application. Then, when we finally enter the real world, we find that we may be book smart but we have failed to become life smart.
This fact isn’t lost on me.
I know that I’ve spent my whole life in classrooms, studying for this moment. And now that it’s here?
I can’t help but be a little afraid.
It’s daunting to take that first step into the real world. That little voice keeps saying, “You’re ready. Just take a deep breath and go.” But there will always be that little mocking voice that challenges that other voices view.
Ignore the fact that I’m debating about voices, and that it probably makes me sound a little unstable in the head.
I’ve decided to avoid listening to the negative voice and start listening to the one that is the real me- positive and upbeat.
I know what I want out of life, it’s just a matter of finding a way to get there.
Sure, it’ll take a lot of work and probably more than a few tears and frustration runs, but I’ll get there. One way or another, I’ll be standing on my own two feet- right where I belong.
I’ll share with you the current background of my computer screen:
“Hey, you out there.
Yes, you. I have something that for some reason, I just felt this incredible urge to share.
Don’t get me wrong. I barely know you.
So what I have to say may not really affect your life at all.
But it’s still something I’m going to say, so please listen to me.
It’s not your fault.
You’re just a human being like the rest of us.
Even successful people have some problems.
And something else.
You are not a failure. You never were.
You may feel like you aren’t doing anything with your life. That all day long, you do ‘nothing.’
But I want you to remember this-
You’re where you are right now
because you wanted to be right here.
Doing nothing isn’t a waste of life or talent. It’s something that you yourself
wanted more than anything. And that’s what you’re doing.
Other people expect or demand things out of you, but they’re just worried about you. That’s all.
They don’t want to see you become unhappy. They don’t think that what you’re doing is what you wanted to do.
You are loved. In some way, shape, or form.
You may be loved by someone you’ve never even met. But their love is there regardless.
Well, I’ve said what I wanted to.
There’s always something eye-opening about this, something new each time I read it. Something that is calming and allows me to take that breath I’ve been afraid to take. In an odd way, it gives me a little bit of courage to take that next step into the unknown and follow my path, wherever it might lead me.
As long as I can always put one foot in front of the other, whether I can see the path or not, I know that I’ll have to courage to do so. There are things that I want out of this brief life that I am unwilling to compromise on. There are goals that I will reach, tasks and dreams that I will accomplish in some small way or another, no matter how long they might take to reach.
The road might not always be easy, but in the end- it will always be worth it. And I intend to enjoy every step of it. Life is far too brief to not make the most of it.
What have been some of your life goals, dear readers? What changes in your life have inspired fear, or perhaps a courage that you never realized you had?
While I may not always say it, I do care about each and every one of you- small as my reader base might be. Everyone has hard days and everyone has days where they just feel like hiding under the covers until the storm passes. Always feel that I am a willing listener when needed, and in return, I promise to make you smile and try to brighten your day. Never feel that you aren’t loved or appreciated, because even though you might not realize it, you are very important to someone out there- even if that someone is a cat, dog, child, cousin, old friend, or acquaintance. You are important and you are never truly alone.
On that note, I hope that you have a wonderful Friday and are enjoying the end of the week. Don’t forget to do your FreeKibble(s) of the day and help out a great cause!